I'm 21 (and 2 Months) Why am I Not Looking for Someone to Date?

I have noticed lately that a lot of my friends (many younger than me) are either getting married, having babies or dating. So wouldn't that make me want to date too? Actually, not really. Some nights, I will go to bed wondering "Will I ever get married, be kissed, or even go on another date?" Oh yeah, I have only been on one date in my entire life and to be honest, it wasn't that great. Plus, I have been rejected 4 or 5 times since. One of my fears is rejection and God forbid that ever happens again. Fact is, I will be probably a number of times more.

I think I do know why I am always rejected, though. I'm a pretty vulnerable guy when it comes to liking someone. I reveal my feelings through a text or a message on Facebook. I have also asked a girl to Homecoming through a freaking tweet lol. I just find it so hard to ask a girl in person. It really is hard. I COULD take them to coffee but then they might even reject my chance really to just hang out. But that isn't really the reason that I don't want to date anyone right now. There's a big reason that I don't want to.

I DON'T HAVE A JOB

Now you may be saying "Not all girls want a guy with money." Now I'm saying "I know that." Then why don't I want to date? Because I'm a romantic guy and wanna surprise my girl with chocolate or flowers or HOW ABOUT CHIPOTLE? Everyone loves Chipotle so its a win/win. Not that if a girl came along, I would say "no." If it was God's plan, I would be all for it. Honestly. But right now having quite a few female friends and Taylor Swift being my wife (in my mind I guess? She hasn't responded to the wedding invitation to our own wedding yet) I am learning what girls do and don't like. It will teach me how to be the best boyfriend ever.

Now let me tell you, I wanna be kissed. I want someone to love. I'm a human, its our instinct. One day "Mrs. Vanderspek" is going to come along. She's gonna have a similar past with relationships as me. She's gonna be beautiful. Shes gonna be the best thing ever, next to God. Babe, whether you're reading this now or whenever, I can't wait to be your husband. Just understand at this point in life I'm not ready to date and/or meet you. Hell, maybe I have met you haha. Thanks i advance for dealing with me.

Until Next Time, Alex

Top 5 Albums of the Third Quarter of 2015 (July - September)

5.) Beauty Behind The Madness by The Weeknd

4.) Copacetic by Knuckle Puck

3.) BADLANDS by Halsey

2.) We Came As Romans by We Came As Romans

1.) Uncomfortable by Andy Mineo

Talking Dreams (Echosmith) 2 Years Later

When the LA-based Indie Rock band Echosmith first came out with their debut album Talking Dreams two years ago today (October 8th 2013 was the official street date), almost no one knew who they were. I mean, you would think after being on Warped Tour, touring with the likes of Owl City, Twenty One Pilots and Tonight Alive, they would be big by then. Unfortunately not. It was not until early 2014 when they started becoming a household name. You started hearing "Cool Kids" everywhere and somehow everyone loved it. Then they jumped on their second year in a row on Warped tour and that sealed the deal. I was at their hometown Pomona date and there was easily 200+ people in their crowd. Compared to the year before where they were lucky to get 50 people watching them. I've known the band since 2011, almost on a personal level. I was friends with all 4 members of Facebook, that is until they deleted their personals. I talked to them on twitter and even got a handwritten letter from them back in April 2014. I waited so long for them to make it and was so proud of them when they finally did. Believe me when I saw when you need to check out their debut EP (Under Ready Set Go!). You can still find it on last.fm, too which is pretty cool because its not like their Echosmith material.

As you can see, I got off track lol. The album came at the perfect time in my life. I was just starting college, trying to find who I was and what I wanted to do in life. It came when I went to a public school for the first time. Where I knew no one. It was a perfect album for everything that was going on in life. I have made friends fans of the band. I have met fans via the internet that are now friends. Thanks, Echosmith and WBR for everything this album has done. When I am sad, I just put this album on my ipod or play it on my record player and it is literally a mood changer. Now what about album 2? All I know is they are starting working on it starting in January 2016. Its also gonna be different than Talking Dreams. But it'll will be filled with catchy songs about love and life and we all cannot wait.

Until Next Time,
Alex Vanderspek

PS if you want to read my original review of Talking Dreams, click here.